Late in the night he looked over at Mildred. She was awake. There was a tiny
dance of melody in the air, her Seashell was tamped in her ear again and she was
listening to far people in far places, her eyes wide and staring at the fathoms
of blackness above her in the ceiling.
Wasn't there an old joke about the wife who talked so much on the telephone that
her desperate husband ran out to the nearest store and telephoned her to ask
what was for dinner? Well, then, why didn't he buy himself an audio-Seashell
broadcasting station and talk to his wife late at night, murmur, whisper, shout,
scream, yell? But what would he whisper, what would he yell? What could he say?
And suddenly she was so strange he couldn't believe he knew her at all. He was
in someone else's house, like those other jokes people told of the gentleman,
drunk, coming home late at night, unlocking the wrong door, entering a wrong
room, and bedding with a stranger and getting up early and going to work and
neither of them the wiser.
"Millie.... ?" he whispered.
"What?"
"I didn't mean to startle you. What I want to know is ...."
"Well?"
"When did we meet. And where?"
"When did we meet for what?" she asked.
"I mean-originally."
He knew she must be frowning in the dark. He clarified it. "The first time we
ever met, where was it, and when?"
"Why, it was at --"
She stopped.
"I don't know," she said.
He was cold. "Can't you remember?"
"It's been so long."
"Only ten years, that's all, only ten!"
"Don't get excited, I'm trying to think." She laughed an odd little laugh that
went up and up. "Funny, how funny, not to remember where or when you met your
husband or wife."
He lay massaging his eyes, his brow, and the back of his neck, slowly. He held
both hands over his eyes and applied a steady pressure there as if to crush
memory into place. It was suddenly more important than any other thing in a
life-time that he knew where he had met Mildred.
"It doesn't matter," She was up in the bathroom now, and he heard the water
running, and the swallowing sound she made.
"No, I guess not," he said.
He tried to count how many times she swallowed and he thought of the visit from
the two zinc-oxide-faced men with the cigarettes in their straight-lined mouths
and the electronic-eyed snake winding down into the layer upon layer of night
and stone and stagnant spring water, and he wanted to call out to her, how many
have you taken TONIGHT! the capsules! how many will you take later and not know?
and so on, every hour! or maybe not tonight, tomorrow night! And me not
sleeping, tonight or tomorrow night or any night for a long while; now that this
has started. And he thought of her lying on the bed with the two technicians
standing straight over her, not bent with concern, but only standing straight,
arms folded. And he remembered thinking then that if she died, he was certain he
wouldn't cry. For it would be the dying of an unknown, a street face, a
newspaper image, and it was suddenly so very wrong that he had begun to cry, not
at death but at the thought of not crying at death, a silly empty man near a
silly empty woman, while the hungry snake made her still more empty.
How do you get so empty? he wondered. Who takes it out of you? And that awful
flower the other day, the dandelion! It had summed up everything, hadn't it?
"What a shame! You're not in love with anyone !" And why not?
Well, wasn't there a wall between him and Mildred, when you came down to it?
Literally not just one, wall but, so far, three! And expensive, too! And the
uncles, the aunts, the cousins, the nieces, the nephews, that lived in those
walls, the gibbering pack of tree-apes that said nothing, nothing, nothing and
said it loud, loud, loud. He had taken to calling them relatives from the very
first. "How's Uncle Louis today?"
"Who?" "And Aunt Maude?" The most significant memory he had of Mildred, really,
was of a little girl in a forest without trees (how odd!) or rather a little
girl lost on a plateau where there used to be trees (you could feel the memory
of their shapes all about) sitting in the centre of the "living-room." The
living-room; what a good job of labelling that was now. No matter when he came
in, the walls were always talking to Mildred.
"Something must be done!I"
"Yes, something must be done!"
"Well, let's not stand and talk!"
"Let's do it! "
"I'm so mad I could SPIT!"
What was it all about? Mildred couldn't say. Who was mad at whom? Mildred didn't
quite know. What were they going to do? Well, said Mildred, wait around and see.
He had waited around to see.
A great thunderstorm of sound gushed from the walls. Music bombarded him at such
an immense volume that his bones were almost shaken from their tendons; he felt
his jaw vibrate, his eyes wobble in his head. He was a victim of concussion.
When it was all over he felt like a man who had been thrown from a cliff,
whirled in a centrifuge and spat out over a waterfall that fell and fell into
emptiness and emptiness and never-quite-touched-bottom-never-never-quite-no not
quite-touched-bottom ... and you fell so fast you didn't touch the sides either
... never ... quite . . . touched . anything.
The thunder faded. The music died.
"There," said Mildred,
And it was indeed remarkable. Something had happened. Even though the people in
the walls of the room had barely moved, and nothing had really been settled, you
had the impression that someone had turned on a washing-machine or sucked you up
in a gigantic vacuum. You drowned in music and pure cacophony. He came out of
the room sweating and on the point of collapse. Behind him, Mildred sat in her
chair and the voices went on again:
"Well, everything will be all right now," said an "aunt."
"Oh, don't be too sure," said a "cousin."
"Now, don't get angry!"
"Who's angry?"
"YOU are ! "
"You're mad!"
"Why should I be mad!"
"Because!"
"That's all very well," cried Montag, "but what are they mad about? Who are
these people? Who's that man and who's that woman? Are they husband and wife,
are they divorced, engaged, what? Good God, nothing's connected up."
"They--" said Mildred. "Well, they-they had this fight, you see. They certainly
fight a lot. You should listen. I think they're married. Yes, they're married.
Why?" And if it was not the three walls soon to be four walls and the dream
complete, then it was the open car and Mildred driving a hundred miles an hour
across town, he shouting at her and she shouting back and both trying to hear
what was said, but hearing only the scream of the car. "At least keep it down to
the minimum !" he yelled:
"What?" she cried.
"Keep it down to fifty-five, the minimum! " he shouted.
"The what?" she shrieked. "Speed!" he shouted. And she pushed it up to one
hundred and five miles an hour and tore the breath from his mouth.
When they stepped out of the car, she had the Seashells stuffed in her ears.
Silence. Onlv the wind blowing softly.
"Mildred." He stirred in bed.
He reached over and pulled one of the tiny musical insects out of her ear.
"Mildred.
Mildred?"
"Yes." Her voice was faint.
He felt he was one of the creatures electronically inserted between the slots of
the phono-colour walls, speaking, but the speech not piercing the crystal
barrier. He could only pantomime, hoping she would turn his way and see him.
They could not touch through the glass.
"Mildred, do you know that girl I was telling you about?"
"What girl?" She was almost asleep.
"The girl next door."
"What girl next door?"
"You know, the high-school girl. Clarisse, her name is."
"Oh, yes," said his wife.
"I haven't seen her for a few days-four days to be exact. Have you seen her?"
"No."
"I've meant to talk to you about her. Strange."
"Oh, I know the one you mean."
"I thought you would."
"Her," said Mildred in the dark room.
"What about her?" asked Montag.
"I meant to tell you. Forgot. Forgot."
"Tell me now. What is it?"
"I think she's gone."
"Gone?"
"Whole family moved out somewhere. But she's gone for good. I think she's dead."
"We couldn't be talking about the same girl."
"No. The same girl. McClellan. McClellan, Run over by a car. Four days ago. I'm
not sure. But I think she's dead. The family moved out anyway. I don't know. But
I think she's dead."
"You're not sure of it! "
"No, not sure. Pretty sure."
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"Forgot."
"Four days ago!"
"I forgot all about it."
"Four days ago," he said, quietly, lying there.
They lay there in the dark room not moving, either of them. "Good night," she
said. He heard a faint rustle. Her hands moved. The electric thimble moved like
a praying mantis on the pillow, touched by her hand. Now it was in her ear
again, humming. He listened and his wife was singing under her breath.
Outside the house, a shadow moved, an autumn wind rose up and faded away But
there was something else in the silence that he heard. It was like a breath
exhaled upon the window. It was like a faint drift of greenish luminescent
smoke, the motion of a single huge October leaf blowing across the lawn and
away.
The Hound, he thought. It's out there tonight. It's out there now. If I opened
the window . . .