He opened the bedroom door.
It was like coming into the cold marbled room of a mausoleum after the moon had
set. Complete darkness, not a hint of the silver world outside, the windows
tightly shut, the chamber a tomb-world where no sound from the great city could
penetrate.
The room was not empty.
He listened.
The little mosquito-delicate dancing hum in the air, the electrical murmur of a
hidden wasp snug in its special pink warm nest. The music was almost loud enough
so he could follow the tune.
He felt his smile slide away, melt, fold over, and down on itself like a tallow
skin, like the stuff of a fantastic candle burning too long and now collapsing
and now blown out. Darkness. He was not happy. He was not happy. He said the
words to himself.
He recognized this as the true state of affairs. He wore his happiness like a
mask and the girl had run off across the lawn with the mask and there was no way
of going to knock on her door and ask for it back.
Without turning on the light he imagined how this room would look. His wife
stretched on the bed, uncovered and cold, like a body displayed on the lid of a
tomb, her eyes fixed to the ceiling by invisible threads of steel, immovable.
And in her ears the little Seashells, the thimble radios tamped tight, and an
electronic ocean of sound, of music and talk and music and talk coming in,
coming in on the shore of her unsleeping mind. The room was indeed empty. Every
night the waves came in and bore her off on their great tides of sound, floating
her, wide-eyed, toward morning. There had been no night in the last two years
that Mildred had not swum that sea, had not gladly gone down in it for the third
time.
The room was cold but nonetheless he felt he could not breathe. He did not wish
to open the curtains and open the french windows, for he did not want the moon
to come into the room. So, with the feeling of a man who will die in the next
hour for lack of air, he felt his way toward his open, separate, and therefore
cold bed.
An instant before his foot hit the object on the floor he knew he would hit such
an object. It was not unlike the feeling he had experienced before turning the
corner and almost knocking the girl down. His foot, sending vibrations ahead,
received back echoes of the small barrier across its path even as the foot
swung. His foot kicked.
The object gave a dull clink and slid off in darkness.
He stood very straight and listened to the person on the dark bed in the
completely featureless night. The breath coming out of the nostrils was so faint
it stirred only the furthest fringes of life, a small leaf, a black feather, a
single fibre of hair.
He still did not want outside light. He pulled out his igniter, felt the
salamander etched on its silver disc, gave it a flick....
Two moonstones looked up at him in the light of his small hand-held fire; two
pale moonstones buried in a creek of clear water over which the life of the
world ran, not touching them.
"Mildred ! "
Her face was like a snow-covered island upon which rain might fall; but it felt
no rain; over which clouds might pass their moving shadows, but she felt no
shadow. There was only the singing of the thimble-wasps in her tamped-shut ears,
and her eyes all glass, and breath going in and out, softly, faintly, in and out
of her nostrils, and her not caring whether it came or went, went or came.
The object he had sent tumbling with his foot now glinted under the edge of his
own bed. The small crystal bottle of sleeping-tablets which earlier today had
been filled with thirty capsules and which now lay uncapped and empty in the
light of the tiny flare.
As he stood there the sky over the house screamed. There was a tremendous
ripping sound as if two giant hands had torn ten thousand miles of black linen
down the seam. Montag was cut in half. He felt his chest chopped down and split
apart. The jet-bombs going over, going over, going over, one two, one two, one
two, six of them, nine of them, twelve of them, one and one and one and another
and another and another, did all the screaming for him. He opened his own mouth
and let their shriek come down and out between his bared teeth. The house shook.
The flare went out in his hand. The moonstones vanished. He felt his hand plunge
toward the telephone.
The jets were gone. He felt his lips move, brushing the mouthpiece of the phone.
"Emergency hospital." A terrible whisper.